Suicide of Sushant Singh Rajput has a indeed been a shocker for everyone. On first thought you wonder why would a person who has got it all took such a step, but sometimes failure hits you hard, especially when you have given 100% of yourself. The thought of how he would be feeling for days / months in state of depression, before he took this step, that is not leaving my mind.
I can feel it even more because I have also come out of a severe depression. I am familiar from that state of mind. When you loose someone dear or when you fail at something, these are generally the triggers to depression. You do feel like no one would understand me, no one is my friend. And honestly there are people who really don’t have true friends, they can count upon.
I definitely find it bullshit posting on social media, “If you are depressed, you can talk to me”. But yes, the person in depress he / she has to take the first step. If you are fortunate enough to have friends and family who figure it out and help you without you asking for help, that is great. Otherwise this one step has to be taken by you. As soon as you accept that, it will be your first step towards fighting depression.
If you feel like you don’t have a friend to talk to, go to a therapist. I took two therapy sessions last year. And in the first session, I cried for through the whole session, literally one and a half hour. There was so much I was keeping inside of me. I felt so so good after letting it all out. Another thing I realized in the session, I took some names while talking, some positives, some negatives. I went to one of those positive names and talked to them. So, this is a great way to know which friend of yours can help you out. For negative people, I have a habit of completely cutting off toxic people in my life. Life is short, you need to take out all the bullshit you can to stay happy.
I know therapy sessions can be very expensive, so there are some other institutes where you can get a free therapy. Recently, I came to know about Bhrama Kumaris, from my relatives. I went down to their Hyderabad branch. They have many good programs to help you keep a good mental health and its all free.
Life is always going to be full of ups and downs, weather you are a jobless person or Bill Gates, you will have days when you do not want to come out of bed, it’s completely normal. But if it is taking over your mental health, you have to take the first step to get up talk to someone, do not expect someone to come and take your hand and get you out. You have to take the first step towards helping yourself.
“God helps those who help themselves”
I have had so many ups and downs in life. There was a time I was having suicidal thoughts, there was a time when I felt like the king of the world. I have had so many failures till now, that I have stopped being surprised by them anymore. I know I will eventually pass it and another situation would hit me again some other day. Its okay to feel like a total looser some days. Give it some time. But eventually you have to get up, fight and start working towards your dreams ❤️.